argh argh argh..
i'm turning green..
hai..

how am i supposed to get over it?

"Grow Old With You"

[Billy Idol (Speaking):] Good afternoon everyone.
We're flying at 26,000 feet, moving
up to thirty thousand feet, and then we've got clear skies
all the way to Las Vegas, and right now we're bringin you some in-flight
entertainment. One of our first-class passengers has written a song
inspired by one of our coach passenger, and since we let our first-class
passengers do pretty much whatever they want, here he is.

[Robbie Hart (Singing):]
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

urgh..
y can't i seem to do anything??

i dunno.. feel like sighing..
am sighing..
it seems.. theres nothing to look foward to..
living each day as it goes by..
theres only sch..

n.. frm so much that i've heard..
i really dun understand some stuff anymore..
is escaping ever a form of escape ultimately?
how do i stick to decisions tt i have made..
or did i even make such decisionS?
the mind is willing but the heart is weak..

hrm.. hot!!! am i getting abit too warm blooded..
or is the weather killing me..
feel like i have a fever..
oh well..
half my day was spent at the airport..
listening to hell week stories..
BUT IT SOUNDS FUN!
but think the pple who went though it wouldn't think so.. haha
oops..
too lazy to type out stuff la..
i wanna ZzZZzzZZZzz!!
maybe go chiong abit of work.. haha..

aniwae..
BLEACH roCKS!!!
esp the anime..
the fighting scenes are flawless!!!!

gg liao.. byebye..

Pull out a hair..
Duration: 3 seconds
Props: a hair
Effect: minuscule

The pain is neegligicle. A pinprick, a tiny, brusque removal from the scalp. You've got hold of one of your hairs between finger and thumb, and pulled it out, in a sharp, vertical movement. Possibly you hesitated, thinking it will hurt more than u expect. Or possivly it took several attempts, before u found the single, abrupt movement required.
And now you've got it. The hair is between your fingers. On your head, at the exact spot where it was, you feel a stinging, which radiates outward in motionless, but growing circles. A pain bothe specific and vague - and unusual in that it starts out in a single, circumscribed spot, and then starts to fade, until it is indicstinct. A memory of pain extended over the skin, rather than something you still really feel.
Well, that's a pretty stupid experiment, you say. Completely useless, utterly without interest. You are absolutely right. And that is exactly the point: to make us aware of an infinity of questions that have no point and no answer. There you are less one hair. How many did u have a moment ago? How many have you now? Did the exact number of hairs on your head ever concern you? Why should it not concern you? With one hair less, have you become bald? How many pulled hairs makes a man bald? Who knows?
These are questions that have no answer, because they touch upon the frontiers of our being, the limits of our identity. These frontiers are not straight lines: we know when a person isn't bald, and when he is, but we have no instrument to gauge precisely, to the nearest hair, the line dividing the bald from the not bald. We discern our own presence in a similarly approximate way. What is clear is that we are vague assemblages, auras, mists - incapable of knowing, to the nearest hair, quite who we are. We shall continue to know nothing of this, and consider the situation no more painful than a pinprick.

from:101 Experiments in the Philosophy of everyday life.

i'm back frm sch!!
tired.. 7 hrs of lessons.. no kidding..
it rained.. v cold!!
so far all my lessons were interesting..
i didn't fall asleep!!
i kinda find Hist of Nation building interesting.. haha..
psych was fun too.. our prof made us to some.. experiments.. haha
abit tired to type liao..
type again tml..
when i'm re-energetized..

oooh... watched seven swords on sat!!!
i kinda like the movie..
i realised i'm really too imagination driven..
i wanna have such an adventure as it is in the movie!!
lotsa heroes well versed in martial arts..
HORSES!!! mA3 ma3!!!!
lotsa horses galloping around..
heroes who love horses..
heroes who are willing to put aside the feuds of past generations for the benefit of the current generation...
heroes who believe in love..
heroes with long flowing hair.. exuding endless charm while contemplating the world.. from the top of a hill.. the sun setting in the background..
ahhhh!!!!!
i need to snap out of it!!!
hai....
wo xiang yao hui dao guo qu...
in all aspects..

tired..tired tired tired..
SPLASHDOWN 2005!!
swam 64 laps..
but.. now kinda tired.. too tired to write all the stuff..
someday la..haaa..

tired.. tml got sch..
tutorial balloting nearly make me blow my top man..
jokingly threatened to juz give up studying...
tried to log in since 9am!!
did the balloting only at 6pm!!
wasted 9 hours of my time..
walking to n fro the comp n the laptop..
trying to see which one can log in...
"server overload or under maintanence.."
argh!!
today.. driving.. wanted to sleep..
i'm all rusty liao..
sian..
siansian.. argh..

Last nite..
couldn't sleep.. but it wasn't exactly a slack day..
why wasn't i tired?'

i dunno...

NUS is big..
sometimes too big..
its hard not to feel lonely at times..
when your friends go for classes and u don't have anywhere to go..
and u dun feel like muggin in the lib..
can't find a cosy corner where u can do ur own stuff..
unwind.. whatever u wanna do..

oh ya.. i thought i was gg to be sick this morning..
when gg to sch..
felt damn weird while standing on the train..
traces of pain in my stomach..
luckily.. i'm a survivor..

went to swim again..
did all sorts of stupid stuff..
witnessed a swimming pool pick up scene..
dumb..

tml no sch..
what shall i do?

came across sth interesting..

Why marriages (usually) don't last.
If you have a brother, think about this question:

"Why is it that you don't fall in love with your brother?"

Dunno? Let me answer it for you.

You see him 24/7, and all his little dirty habits. No way you can like a guy whom you know inside out.

That's why the love dies when a man and woman get married.


haha.. so is it true?
aniwae.. realised sth..
these few days.. or the past week..
have been sleeping quite late.. for my standards la..
yest slept at 1.30.. didn't feel v tired..
weird..
oh well..biological clock is changing.. haha..
wanna do so many things.. really..
i'm not content being juz n arts grad in future..
i wanna learn so many things..
i hope to be an interior designer..
a fashion designer.. even a baker!! u know those kind of pretty cakes n everything..
i wanna draw also.. i guess i'm v visually stimulated..
maybe aft i get my driving licence i wanna take back piano..
n go pass grade8.. at least can call it a close..
i wanna learn to play the flute also!!
i was watching animal planet.. i wanna be a zookeeper!! i wanna handle tigerS!!
lions also can.. horses!! realli wanna rided a horse!!
i even wanna do lotsa things now..
i wanna make lampshades.. haha.. i sort of "made" one out of a torchlight n a christmas hat cherlyn gave..
i wanna paint a picture to hang in the living room.. my mum said the original one abit.. old.. heh..
so much to do.. so little time!!


but mabbe i'm juz trying to find sth do fill up the hole in my life..

hmm.. guess the previous post got prob.. can't seE!! oh well.. its on my live journal..
feeling kinda sian.. did almost nothing today..
dropped a module.. the stuff sounded too chim to me.. moral philosophy..
there were alot of new terms.. all end with ism..
tml.. english module. have to wake up at 6!! crazy hor? oh well.. sian half.. sian sian..
mabbe tml go NUS swim.. mabbe not.. hai!!

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when the message tone of your hp sounds.. who do u hope it would be?
when you wish to hear frm that someone.. u keep checking your phone..
you keep hearing your hp sms tone... only to realise your ears are playing tricks on you..
why are such simple decisions so diff to make?
why is there so much to consider?

its all driving me crazy...

dunno why..
vv tired..
keep wanting to sleep...
sore throat..
sch's starting tml..
how?

BoOO!!! iM BACK!! frm orientation.. too tired to blog la..
lets see lets see.. thursday i didn't go.. cos of driving..
FRIDAY: bid for modules.. had some bombing games.. where each hose have unique actions.. we are the jedi knights.. so we go.. "wong wong wong" may the force be with you.!! haha.. to counter tt.. the enemy muz say "wa eh chiew ah.. (my hand!!) then realise theres no harm done.. say "CHEY!"
kinda lame.. haha..then there was some fashion show thing..dressed up zhen wei as SUPER SHARK! haha.. cos our grp sharks fin ma.. haha... then at night.. FRIGHT NIGHT!! they made us watch SHUTTER.. acty.. it wasn't so scary..i was more scared of the pple screaming.. then i jolt up!! aniwae.. the walk wasn't so bad..too used to it i guess..mabbe nxt year i join comm. then scare the wits out of everyone! haha..

monday.. went to help my fren clean out her hostel.. went ikea.. i seriously wanna be an interior designer!!! mabbe nxt time i go study part time.. or even better.. juz do free lance..juz kao4 my own "talent" ba.. haha if i had any!! yay yay! then aft tt.. went back my fren's place.. so tired tt i fell asleep on her bed.. heh..

WED! haha. war games! the games quite easy la acty.. not too challenging.. haha.. but run quite abit..frm one end of the field to another.. then war games.. WATER BOMB!! woohoo!! fun fun fun.. haha.. got wet la of course.. filled alot alot of water bombs.. then performance prep..
THURS! watched red candy.. i kinda dun understand the plot but nvm!! i cried cos of the guy n the girl!! the guy didn't want the girl to die so he was prepared to take her place.. hai.. so sad.. aniwae. performance prep later.. then at night FINALE night!! haha.. our performance was fun! the guru dance.. and some mambo dance.. haha..didn't stay till the end..

aniwae.. my OG pple were fun n nice.. esp the girls.. hee.. the guys sometimes.. abit.. HAI.. haha..oops.. i didn't say anything..