its vv tough being a friend.. even tougher to be a gd friend.. a good listener.. good advice giver.. i juz realised.. its easy to show concern.. but very difficult to show real understanding.. when a friend is in need.. a friend feeling upset..in need of comfort..i think the real impt thing to do.. actually is not show concern..(e.g. saying "i'm worried for you.. must take care..") ... though it does help if you show concern.. i feel however.. by saying you're worried.. further causes tt friend to withdraw from letting it out.. for fear of not letting you be worried.. i'm worried bout a friend.. but at the same time.. i know i can't show it to my friend that i'm worried.. cos he said he can't be sad at home or his family will worry.. i think he doesn't want to burden others with his problems.. thus.. only by not showing the worrisome side.. can i be of help..

i know it sounds abit.. chim but.. ya i suddenly realised tis.. its quite difficult to be a real friend.. esp when you're stuck in the middle of the pple involved.. dunno who to side.. hope i dun turn mad.. haha.. shou xin shi rou.. shou bei ye shi rou...

hope the sky clears soon..

heehee.. today driving!!! before tt went for an e-trial test.. final theory test simulation.. in 45 mins i did 3 papers.. ALL FAIL!! but nvm.. at least i know what kinda questions keep coming out.. then can go study.. hahaha.. oh well.. today driving quite fun.. blind spot checking.. my neck gonna cramp liao la.. but quite fun!! drive till abt 60km/h... quite fast..

aniwae.. haha wed gg to watch initial D!! wonder if its nice.. haha.. these few days will be quite busy.. haha.. oh ya.. juz now at bedok lib.. abit scary.. i was walking up to the 2nd floor ma.. climb stairs.. then i saw this guy hurrying down.. then in front got pple.. then i din see him at first.. he din see me also i think.. then view clear liao.. then i walk pass him.. dunno why he suddenly stop.. then i thought i know him not.. but i think i dunno him leh.. but dunno why he stop liao then turn back.. up to the 2nd floor.. then..i siam..hahha.. then aft tt.. go 1st floor tt time.. he also there.. dunno y keep looking in my direction.. i with my bro n mum ah.. dunno.. mabbe i paranoid.. hahah.. freaky!! tt time go out with SC also.. bugis seiyu.. we looking ard.. then there was this man.. abt 40+ la.. he was looking in our direction n calling sth.. i thought he calling han nee.. (someone's name) ...then dunno why he approach us and say.. "honey.. i love u very much... bla bla bla.." AHHHHHH!!! we quickly pretend dunno anything n siam.. he got try to follow abit.. but we were faster.. scary!!

:) had a happy day.. bleah.. hee.. today gotta replenish my sleep..
didn't sleep much last nite.. no prob liao now.. heng.. aniwae..
I LOVE CANTONESE SONGS! dunno why.. juz love it la.. haha..
songs by Eason chan..Joey Yung.. Miriam Yeung.. Luo jia liang also!!
now go rest abit.. yest n today too much anxiety liao.. bleah.. faint..

ahhh!!! the comp gone bonkers... have install windows again.. all the programmes gone!! no flash mx.. no adobe.. my flash can't complete liao.. win.. now muz find all the progs n install again..
sian!! :P
later gg driving.. sian la.. juz type till here..
abit sian of life.. wanna start sCH!!!! grr..haha..

i hope i didn't make the wrong decision..
i hope i can stop thinking..
i hope i can stop getting reminded of stuff i dun want to get reminded of..

hee..hee...hee....
i can't stop grinning..
can't stop smiling to myself.. haha..
i'm smiling at the comp!!
hmm... all i thought of it was a fun MSN chat drawing abt starwars stuff..
then a little story with a lame ending was created..
but LITTLE did i know tt it was made into a MINI MOVIE!!!
WAHAHAHAHA.... hahaha... HEEEE!!!...
SO FUN!!!
the excitement hasn't died down..
i'm still smiling.. half n hour aft i first saw tt movie.. haha...
NV did i expect tt.. haha..
life ROCKS!
i wanna learn to make it too!!!!!!!!
WOOT!!

hee!!! juz feeling.. alittle happy.. feeling kinda.. lovey dovey.. not cos of anything that happened to me.. but.. TV!! TV is the culprit.. or is the stuff on tv too idealistic.. but i dun care!.. for once let me drown in fantasy land.. haha..
ok.. it started with eye for a guy 2.. howard made this video expressing how he felt abt denise.. he said that it is like a big crush n he's behaving like an eleven year old having his first crush.. and when denise finished the vid.. she didn't know what to say.. and for the first time in the whole series.. she was nervous abt everything.. feeling like a little girl..

and then.. the show ends. and there was a sneak at the next episode.. howard takes denise out to dinner.. and presents to her a little book.. "A fairy Tale" on the cover.. it contained handdrawn pictures.. very sweet!! gonna get diabeties.. haha..

okay.. then.. i watched inuyasha.. hee.. suddenly wished tt life could be a big adventure.. and have someone to care for and who would protect you.. like how inuyasha is towards kagome.. aww man!! hee... feeling mushy all over..bleah.. so nt like me to say this out! haha..

oh well.. gotta slp.. hope i dream of YOU tonite..